The Scars of Guilt…

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“I told you to be patient!!!” she screams those words so aggressively at my face
I am a burden to her, a burden to my mom…
I never wanted to be…
And I am not doing it on purpose!
I don’t have a cold heart
I try my best not to complain…
But sometimes I just can’t!
I am ill..
My illness is not easy…
It has put me through life or death situations countless times…
I always run to her and hug her so tight..
Try to make her feel better
But sometimes I deprive her from that
Because I know she’ll sense the silent screams that are filling my inside…
This isn’t how I wished it would be like..
Every time I try to get back on my feet…
I get pushed back to the ground..
And every time I try to forget about it…
The wounds simply open up again..
I try to pretend that everything’s ok…
But every time I gaze into her eyes
I notice all the suffering I have put her through..
And the scars of guilt remind me that all this is real…
If I could take all the pain away I would
I would stand up and take all the blame..
I just wish I can tell her not to worry…
That all this is over…
And I’ll just spread my wings and fly away…
If she prefers…

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This entry was published on February 3, 2013 at 8:39 pm. It’s filed under Uncategorized and tagged , , , . Bookmark the permalink. Follow any comments here with the RSS feed for this post.

One thought on “The Scars of Guilt…

  1. She doesn’t prefer x

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